I just need to write this down.
- I hear voices 24/7. They’re not nice. They torment me & make me want to hurt or even kill myself. Every. Single. Day.
- I (apparently) see things that aren’t real, which is happening more often. Don’t like it.
- Psychotic depression is slowly crawling back into my life. I’m really scared about this. Everyone is saying I should be happy etc. but I’m just getting too depressed to even care.
- I’m still constantly being followed by the shadows. Somehow they have put bugs under my skin. Must have happened when I was asleep. I knew I shouldn’t sleep, that they would get to me, but I was exhausted. Now I can mostly feel them in my fingertips right now & there’s barely any skin left because I’m trying to get them out. I also cut patterns on my arm in an attempt to catch the bugs long enough so I can cut them out of my body.
- I’m dissociating more often as well. I hate it when this happens & scares the shit out of me. Afterwards I always praying I haven’t done too much damage.
- The nightmares won’t stop. It’s making me exhausted.
- I’m finding it extremely hard to deal with my emotions in a proper way.
- PTSD is kicking my ass. Makes me suicidal. I’m too broken.
A Crazy Mind. 